Witch at work:

Lately, My mind has been overrun with ideas, emotions, this and that tasks.

My current job has been steadily moving upward with promotions and steady praise.

My household has been in kind of a slump do to me doing so much, just like yesterday I worked a double shift...

3am-5pm it was a long, long day for me and this dreaded heat seems to just PULL it out of me.

I came home last night and went to bed at 7pm and slept until 10am today. That is NOT like me. I am a blur when I am at home...I think I suffer from ADHD...But the good thing is I seem to be doing quite well at completing goals when I am awake and at home...its really weird.

I have always been a busybody, I am wonderful at delegating tasks and jobs. My biggest issue was just feeling like I had all the time in the world and I believe it made me a tad lazy. LOL

Now, its just one blur after the other. One thing I can say...I am the better for it. I feel stronger, independent and as if I can conquer the world. People have been very kind lately and I don't take compliments like I should...I just smile and nod...I am changing that.

I am so grateful for all I am learning and I just hate when I miss out on my blog or meditation but I do know that when I get the chance to sit and relax...I will fully appreciate it more than I ever have. That is the lesson I am taking from this. My glass is half full....I wear rose coloured glasses...I am on my way to being the WITCH/WOMAN I have been setting my sights on for so long. Now...off to crack open a book and do a bit of brewing before work tonite.

Brightest Blessings )o(

Daily Tarot: THE STAR

The Star

The Inspiration of the Journey

The woman with little or no clothing on in many tarot decks is used to represent the mind, the unconscious or the soul. The water flowing from the erns she is holding represents the ebb and flow of life, health, movement and change.

Behind her is the tree of life, or in some decks as she is here, she is watering the tree of life. Behind her is a giant star which reminds us of the Great Divine and Shining so from up above helps us to realize the infinite universe. This card with her many symbols is supposed to remind us that the great divine is all around us....encouraging, inspiring and motivating us forward from our tasks that may or may not bear fruit.

This card implies that you LISTEN to the inspirations that come from within you. You are the GODDESS. You have everything you need to achieve your desires. GO FOR IT: don't wait a minute longer. But the star also holds a warning....be sure where you place your energies and time. What is the use of pouring water on water?

But if you put that same water on land...it would bear fruit in the right place at the right time. YOU hold all the decisions...actions....basically...you hold all the cards.

~Personal to me~

This card is really wonderful for me today...lately I have been flowing back and forth between the wands, pentacles and whatever my position is ...it tends to be further down the journey which I know this is true. I have had alot of movement in my career...my home life and my relationship with my kids, even my friends and fiance'. I have everything I need....at my disposal I AM FOLLOWING my instincts and it is paying off...I am recognized at work daily with my supervisors I am being treated wonderfully by my fiance and I am bringing forward a better friendship daily with my friends by working really hard at being a better friend myself. My kids are starting to appreciate my hard work and caring for them these past 20 years and starting to check on me and be there for me a bit more by wonderful phone calls. I am doing beautifully and keeping to my path...where this is water, land and opportunity there is chance...so I am waiting for my garden to grow and bring forth the fruit of my hard labor.

Daily Tarot: 9 Of Wands

Nine of Wands + Accomplishment

3 Threes combine in the 9, so here we find the energy of the 3's, the resolution of the 6's and the rewards of the 9's.

This is your last chance to finish something you may have started before the cycle completes. Think of the 9's as a sign, a sign that its time to look where you have been and complete, reflect or think of where you are presently in your journey for your path.

Consider that although 10 finishes the suits, the 9's are the last finishing classes required for Graduation.

This card is a representation of will and personal power. You either are on the winning side or have already won. Merely stay with the task at hand and complete what you have begun and it will be done. The end is in sight so stay on course. Let the marks left by your struggles be worn as your badge of honour and skill.

Wands + Fire + Passion

Time + High Noon

Season + Summer

Direction + South

Wands represent the elemental Fire because wood fuels fire. This usually also has meaning about following your gut instinct.

I have had quite a few changes this past weekend...both kids moving out and moving on. It has been really hard on me emotionally from sadness, depression, pride and excitement. But even though every part of me is screaming to go...tell my kids..PLEASE stay! I know...NO, my GUT instinct is saying...THIS IS RIGHT. This is their journey and a beginning of a new journey for me...Life cycles and this is the right path at the right time.

I realize one is 20 and the other 18 this is an important right of passage for them and me. I have done well as a guardian and must move a bit out of my comfort zone to let them begin their paths.

I have faith the Goddess will guide and protect them along their way and in the midst of all this, I am facing a new promotion with work as well. So, yes...the end is in sight and I will stay the course.

Brightest Blessings )o(

Daily Tarot: The Fool

The Fool: The Beginning of a Journey

The fool is the Ultimate beginning, if you notice he is careless and carefree, enjoying his day not watching his footing and just going with how he feels right then.

The Sun at his back, his companion at his ankles lapping at him excitedly and enjoying the outing. The Fool is physically there, but mentally he is daydreaming about what is to be or what will be. The future is not set. He by all accounts will Go right over that edge of the Cliff? journey?

Or is it? Is it what it appears?

Sometimes in life, we must embark on that strange, vast expanse before us and have a moment where we quit OVER THINKING everything and just go with it...enjoy it for what it is and just be in the moment....the Journey. This is how new Universes are discovered, new ideals are created, new inventions are made.

The Blessing of the Fool card is a daring heroism that brings in astonishing results against all the odds. Its about letting go...taking that leap of freedom no matter how scary or unknowing that end result may be.

I find this a culmination for me of yesterday's events. Not only did my son return to finish his Schooling 2 hours away from me. . . against all my instincts to KEEP him. :)

But, My 20 year old also informed me she will be moving out and into an apartment with some of her closest friends...taking that Initial leap away from me as well.

Normally, I would still be bawling...I love and adore my kids I was always one of those soccer, PTA, homeroom, girl scout/cub scout leader moms'.

But I realize...this is THEIR paths, their choices, their lives. I am but a guardian for them & I must leap over that EDGE and trust that I have placed myself and them right where we should be.

This is the BEGINNING of another journey for me....My life...with ME. Getting to know who I am, what I want, How I feel. I matter and I need to know all about ME. This should be an amazing beginning and one I refuse to be sad about. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids and they will be home for a small break at the holidays, but....I am excited to get going...so I will grab my knapsack, hiking stick and my lovely companion at my heels, I will welcome my new destination and take that terrifying leap because I truly believe it is this moment for me now that is my next BEGINNING.

Brightest Blessings Always )o(

The Road home...

Well, today the day was LONG it was sad and exciting for me as we took my son back to the town in which he will be attending his senior year. He is 18 now and very ready to take on the world. I love that in him. I smiled...laughed we talked and he knows I don't want him to go, yet he didn't see that. I wanted him to be excited I didn't want to spoil it for him or make him feel guilty.
As we drew closer to home...I admired the sunset amidst my tears. I was inspired by it and it lifted me. The beautiful colors with the Golden sun as he sank down into the deeper blues. This picture from my phone just doesn't do it justice.
Later, I found out...my 20 year old is moving out as well. One can say I was double whammied. Its ok though. As sad as I am, I would say the Hanged Man card saw this coming. I will not be upset...My kids are both beginning new chapters in their journeys and I want to inspire them...let them go as they need to. I will be encouraging and help all I can as they move forward to their paths in life. May the Goddess protect, love and light their way. Brightest Blessings Always )o(.

Welcoming in Lammas....

Merry Meet my friends....this is the top of my altar it is a beautiful Black Ar moire and it sits in my front parlor...on top of it is a special cloth that is 2 sided that one of my very best friends stitched for me...on the other side of the cloth is an Egyptian print which I love, love, love. I decided that I would use the gold/wheat colored side of it today for celebrating Lammas.

I have a FEW of my books on top for quick reference...then my statue of Mother Goddess tree of life hanging above, along with an incense burner on the left of her as well. I placed my mortar and pestle on the altar to signify the grinding of herbs, grains and earthen products used in blessings. The incense to bring the Air element, my Basil from kitchen sill to ward of negativity and signify earth & water for me. Also I lit a beautiful Gold candle for the Golden sun...a few stones...quartz and arrowhead...then my red chalice of Ale to bring forth water and it contained hops and barley...my golden owl bell to ring in the quarters...my homemade Banana nut bread on my purple pentacle to give thanks and represent the harvest and my spirit of love for the Goddess/Gods...and of course I couldn't resist to place my "Earth Mother" Venus of Willendorf I love her most of all...she is so representational of the curvy beautiful woman.

I wanted to open up a bit and show you these things that matter so much to me and that I have been collecting and lovingly show casing in my home. I am sooo proud...

these of course are full views of my altar...my besom and other precious items ...I have journals...candle baskets...cloth baskets...herb baskets...and my wand and such inside..I am so very proud of who I am and what I consist of as a being. This is what I love and where I feel at peace. It just started years and years ago as a small top of a chest of drawers in my bedroom.

Many thanks for taking the time to look and read what I write, it matters so much to me. May you always find the witch within you...WITCH such a powerful word. It inspires, creates, moves magick and loves and years ago Witch meant WISE ONE. I hope I am living up to that and honoring the Goddess within me. I look forward to our journey together my friend. Brightest Blessings )o(.

Our Journey today:

Today we are taking my son back to school which is about two hours away...I am happy, yet I am grieving.

He is 18 and it is his senior year he is so excited so he will not SEE my sadness. He knows I love him and wish he were here with me. Since my divorce, I had to relocate due to the economy and my Ex husband still lives in the same town giving our son a chance to graduate with the friends he has had since kindergarten. That I am so very blessed for.
He is not actually living with his father, he does not get along with the NEW wife. Which is sad, although her fault not his as I stated earlier in one of my blogs, she has alot of hatred for me. Sadly its not necessary but I guess he and I and our history we dated since ninth grade and were together almost 23 years, married 18 years and two amazing children.

I know what you think...but I left him actually. I mustered my strength for about 3 years before leaving. The only regret I have in leaving is the hardship it placed on my two teenagers. We were really good friends during and after the divorce until the NEW WIFE. Its only about my kids now and their relationship with their father which is non existent. That breaks my heart.

But, of my rant....LOL....My son is living with his friend he has known since Kindergarten and their family is wonderful and kind to my son and so welcoming we are blessed to have that option.
Now, amidst my feelings and the traveling I will not be really posting today....But I drew the Three of Swords today which is exactly where my heart is today and probably the next few days because when my children are not close my depression tends to move in more on me. I hope you all understand.

Brightest Blessings...)o(